Being an adult?

So, my second year of college is over. Reality is getting much closer. I am so afraid of adult life. I am intimidated by the mere thought of interviews although I feel they would represent me better than a resume. I am afraid of having all these different bills to pay. I am afraid of living alone. I am afraid of having to represent myself a certain way.

I am doing very well on taking all the classes I need to graduate and I think it is possible for me to graduate in 4 years without an extra semester or year. The problem is that being a student is so fun! So many opportunities are available while in college!

• Discouted tickets at movies, musems, and events
• Study Abroad
• Student Clubs and Organizations
• Leadership Oppourtunities
• Free help with tutoring, counseling, job searches etc.
• SFSU Students recieve Free Anti-Virus Software *Ask me how

I can barely believe that 2 years are already over. If the next 2 years are as fast as the past, the entire experience is almost over! Although I love being a student, it is still really hard work. The future is just so daunting. I am not going to say that being a student is easier than being an adult or vice-versa. I think it is the whole idea of change and just takes getting used to.

I am afraid of being an adult, but there is still so much to look forward to!

How do you feel about the future?

Laying Awake at Night

It's already 1:48 a.m. and I'm wide awake. Every night, even after a long day, I always lay awake thinking of anything and everything. I think about tomorrow, yesterday, today. I think about school and finding a job. I think about relationships between the boyfriend, friends, and family. I think about movies and books. I think about dramas and television series. I think about clothes I have and do not have and all the ways I could put together an outfit. I think about crafts I could make and things I could sell.

And on this particular night, I am up thinking about nail designs I want to try. I bought two packs of fake nails from Daiso and it makes this feeling worse because now I do not have to wait until my current nail designs start chipping. It just makes trying out designs so much more appealing!

Designs to try out:

• Stripes and Polka dot mix
• Vintage Floral
• Cherry Blossoms
• Medival Shield
• Gradient Colors

I'm still really new to nail art, but I am totally hooked right now. I just keep watching videos on YouTube and nail designs keep popping up on my Tumblr Dashboard!

I wish I could leave you with a picture of my paint-splatter nails I just recently removed*.

I now have a subtle shade of pink, just in case I land a job interview. If it keeps up that I don't get one, I'll just keep painting like crazy on my nails. Hopefully I'll be able to keep it up when school starts. I'm really hoping that I'll have more time for myself and fashion this school year. I hate going to school wearing baggy clothes or the same combinations I use all the time. It just doesn't make my day good enough.

I know that it shouldn't matter what I look like, especially since it's just school and everyone's just as stressed out and tired as I am most of the time. I already have a boyfriend too, so it's not like I'm trying to win over other guy's attention. It's just all about self-confidence. When I feel like I look good, I act more out going and am more active. When I dress down, I rarely feel accomplished. It's really rather amazing, the difference in my atittude.

I just like the way I feel when I dress up. I feel like me.

**EDIT**
Here's my paint-splatter nails!


And Bonus! My newest and favorite ring! It's a double ring and I've been wanting one forever!

School and Lolita

In just being in college, I find myself afraid of wearing Lolita at school. I am not afraid of the way people will treat me or how they will look at me or what they will say to me. I have gone to school in Lolita and it is quite easy to do at San Francisco State. The problem is that I am no longer just taking General Education classes and have gone onto taking my major courses within Hospitality Management and Tourism under the school of business.

I am afraid of giving the wrong impression on professors and fellow students within my major. Loita is the complete opposite of business wear. These people will most likey be in the Hospitality industry and I just do not want to blow my chances at anything just because of the way I dress. I do believe that there is an appropriate time for everything and Lolita just does not cut it at school for me right now.

I just miss my Lolita clothes really. After my biggest bodyline order back in February, all I wanted to do was dress Lolita, but it just never worked out. The only place I really went out to was school where I did not want to wear lolita. I would feel like it is such a waste to just wear my clothes at home. I was also busy with school work to dress up too. I would dress up when I went out on weekends, but I go home to my parents every weekend. They know about my Lolita clothes, but I would rather just avoid the lecture everytime they see me wearing it. Summer does not work much either because I am at home with my parents and it is too hot anyways. Oh well, hopefully this can change next semester and I can stay in San Francisco a few weekends or something.

What do you think about wearing Lolita at school? Do you think I should just go for it and wear Lolita to school anyways? Is there any kind of compromise you think I can do?

Updates since March

Since my last post just updated about my blog, this post will update about my life.

School is over, but I am taking summer school at my local community college. I am taking accounting and I actually find it rather interesting. If I end up really liking it, I may change my major to accounting. I am also trying to find a summer job. I have been trying to find a food type job like at Subway or Cold Stone because it is within the Hospitality Industry, my current major.

I have been out for summer for about a month now and it has actually been pretty exciting. In just the past 2 weeks I have tried Zumba, played tonsof Just Dance 2, visited the Academy of Sciences in San Francisco for Free, watched the musical Avenue Q, and put up a lemonade stand with my cousins to benefit Alex's Lemonade Stand Foundation. I may have done more, but this is what comes to mind the most.

I definately recommend putting out a lemonade stand or something of a similar nature. It is fun to do with family or friends because it is good quality bonding time and you get to see who lives around the neighborhood. I definately recommend some kind of tent or shade and wearing sunblock for doing this in the summer.

Avenue Q was really interesting. The music was really catchy and they brought up lots of issues like sex, racisim, and sexuality in a very different manner. If you did not know already, Avenue Q is a musical with puppets and people kind of like Sesame Street and they teach certain lessons with pictures and song. It is definately not for kids though.

Hopfully I will be able to fully update about other fun and adventures I happen to have in the future!

How has your week been?

Sorry

I really wanted to start a new and I still only have one blog post. I'm sorry, I am so disappointed in myself.

I just got really busy with school things and then, my laptop broke right before Finals. It's been summer vacation for a month now and I still have not gotten it fixed. I have been borrowing my sister's laptop whenever she is not using it, so I have not been able to spend much time on the computer. I can only check my e-mail and social networking sites quickly and any other important business such as school and work. Since it is not my computer, I cannot upload pictures from my camera either and now the memory is full :[

I miss being able to blog, so I have decided to make blogging at least once a week if not every day a priority. Sadly, I will not be able to post any pictures until I get my own laptop. If you do not like so many words, this may not be for you then, but I will add photos later on.

Each post will probably just be about my day. Please enjoy! :D